For the past 2 weeks ,i am facing a lot of embarassments. first i was questioned by a receptionist, "what is your father?",a straight forward answer - a marine engineer.since i joined the computer institute saying my father is a retired person
(really he is )the questioned really bamboozeled me. fearing that they would take back the 500 rupees scholarship if i reveal i am an engineer's son, i started bluffing. my answer was like this " My father helps my mother,a land broker, biochemist ,running clinic in shanmugam road who is retired and staying in house ". shit! what a bad command of the language. then i explained her clearly about my father. still that was unconvincing.
Then i met Mr Mahesh - a technical head DSL who asked " what sort of project are u looking for ?" i took the initiative and explained we want" 20 % hardware ,20 % software and the remaining we can explain to madam" from where the hell the explaining process came i donot know. i was thoroughly humilated but no one recognized this mistake as they carried on with their activity. i felt very bad.
i made my mind to take some positive newyear resolutions which includes not to kill time especially in blogging and not to dream. i am really a great dreamer. i would describe my self as a radioactive dreamer.first i would think of an event in the past then i would connect the people's emotions and reactions to it and then i would assume the role of a super hero ammending the situation. then i would connect all the related events to it and would start dreaming in a chain reaction manner.
the second resolution that i want to take , is to add more intensity & integrity to my character. during the school days i was a person with lots of intensity and instinctiveness.but all of which changed when i joined the college. i became lot more submissive and understated.how can i describe this, is this evolution or degradation? well past is past.
the third resolution would be ,stop watching the television prog.i am watching lots of t.v. prog for quite some time.though they are informative i decided to check them.i successfully stopped watching the t.v. serial called "KOLANGAL".though my family members are still on to it.one of my favourite prog. is the b.b.c. university challenge where 2 teams battle it out for the ultimate quiz glory.
the fourth resolution would be,to increase my interpersonnal skills.i am everybody's nightmare when it comes to conversation.most of the time i would not at all react to other's views , i would quietly turn away or nod , that would be my reaction. i would spend most of my time in analysing what others are thinking and how would they react to the situation rather than responding to their questions. i want to change this attitude not because i have analysed enough, but i want to take the intiative and improve my interpersonnal skills.